The Republic of Ghana is unique in so many ways. On March 6,1957 it was the first African country to attain independence from colonial rule. It is an English speaking country surrounded by French speaking Togo, Cote D'Ivoire and Burkina Faso.
The southern border is a stretch of beautiful coastline with inviting beaches. Each of its 10 regions offers a different experience-from infamous slave castles and traditional artisans, to game parks and the only canopy walk in Africa.
Originally a fishing village, Accra is now a cosmopolitan capital with an international airport.
Ghana is near the equator with warm and humid temperatures, a summer rainy season, and a beautiful spring like August.
"Feel Free" is an expression you hear often in Ghana. It means that you are free to be yourself and to explore what interests you. The people are known for their friendliness and hospitality and Ghana has a democratic government that makes keeping visitors happy a priority.
Although Ghana is a small country, about the size of Oregon, the indigenous crafts are collected worldwide and there are many festivals and activities that celebrate its rich culture and heritage.
Ghana is the perfect destination for anyone with a strong interest in African art and culture.
Some Impressions of Ghana
- A person who never travels believes that his mother's cooking is the best in the world,
- Short stories... impressions of Ghana,
- Africa For Africans: A Black Americanís Return to Africa,
by Anthony Delaney
A PERSON WHO NEVER TRAVELS BELIEVES THAT HIS MOTHER'S COOKING IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD (African proverb)
I think that everyone should experience a culture unlike their own. It gives an understanding and a perspective that you don't face by staying home. A superficial understanding of a culture is more dangerous than no understanding at all.
Some Ghanaians comment that foreigners are too standoffish. We watch from a distance but don't want to get too close or too involved. I think that sometimes, without even realizing it, we let our prejudices affect our behavior. I can think of one situation where, fortunately without knowing it, I did the right thing. I was in a famous pottery village watching a potter at work. I asked if I could try to make a pot. As I worked, she was beaming. I thought that she was impressed with my skill, but she was smiling because, as I learned through an interpreter, many outsiders come to watch but few of them will put their hands in the clay.
There are times when it's prudent to stay uninvolved, but still you must not be rude. In Ghana it is customary to bring a glass of water to someone who enters your house. Some Ghanaians don't know that we can get sick by drinking unboiled water. In this situation, accept the water and pour a drop on the floor and put the glass back on the table.
There is a story about a woman, who when offered a glass of water was told as you were to pour some out. For whatever reason, she threw the contents of the glass against the wall and then returned the empty glass to the table. You can bet that everyone in that village is still talking about her! I have observed so many travelers to Ghana who look, but don't see. They come home with the same stereotypes they had before, and this is one of the reasons I felt compelled to set up a program where Ghanaians and visitors can live and work together and get to know each other on a personal level. Because I am an artist, I chose to focus on the arts, but I have faith that the artists will share their stories with others.
If you've heard anything about Ghana, you know that the people are praised for their hospitality. I've been asked by would be travelers if it's dangerous to travel in Ghana. My response is that you're apt to be killed with kindness. I can think of so many occasions when people went out of their way to help me and not one occasion when I felt threatened. That isn't to say that there isn't crime and everything else that comes with "civilization" and that's another reason to learn something about the society, but not a reason to stay at home.
Some situations, although not dangerous, can be frustrating. One of the stereotypical ideas that Africans have about us is that we are all rich (as in very), therefore it is alright to charge us outrageous prices, at least by their standards, but compared to America things like inflated taxi rates are still cheap by our measure. There are two schools of thought about what you should pay. In Africa you are expected to bargain for most things, including taxi rides. You can ask anyone (except the taxi driver) what the going rate is and start negotiating and you will get a pretty fair price, but seldom as low as a Ghanaian can negotiate, or you can pay the inflated price and know that you are putting food on someone's table. I tend to bargain hard so the driver will respect my ability to do so, and then when we get to our destination I give him a dash, so then we are both happy. Tipping is not part of the culture, but those coming in contact with foreigners are getting used to being tipped.
The best advice I can give you is don't be uptight in Ghana. It's easy to be frustrated when you're in a culture very different from your own, but isn't that why you are going there? I find that tourists get testy when they eat unfamiliar food, or, God forbid, have to be on African time. A favorite Ghanaian expression is "feel free". It means do your own thing and go with the flow.
I rarely meet someone who doesn't want to go back to Ghana. If your visit isn't a life changing experience, then you didn't take my advice.
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Short stories... impressions of Ghana
WOFRE WO DEN? They call you what? WO FRE ME ABA. They call me Aba. This always gets a smile. My full name is Aba Broni Kakraba, small thursday-born white woman. This always gets a laugh. When I took a local name many years ago it was considered amusing, but now the custom has become more common. Especially among African-Americans who attend special naming ceremonies to welcome them back to their homeland. The Ghanaian government has established an Emancipation Day Festival that brings people from the Diaspora to Ghana to reconnect with their ancestors and the highlight of this event is to receive an African name. Some Ghanaians, impressed by the interest of outsiders, are also beginning to use their African names in place of their Christian ones.
Ghanaian names are wonderfully descriptive. By knowing someone's name you already know a lot about them and their place in the family. For example, you know that Tewia was born after twins and kakra and pane are the twins. Many Ghanaians are named after the day of the week on which they were born. Outsiders comment that this limits the parents to only 7 boys names and 7 for girls, but that isn't the case. There are always nicknames and descriptive names or birth order names.
Some children do not have the same surname as their fathers. They may be named after a deceased relative taking both that persons first and last name. When I found this confusing my informant didn't understand why. He said, "Everybody knows who your father is."
And bless the missionaries who randomly attached anglicized names to entering school children when they couldn't pronounce or spell the African name, thus creating another way for someone not to have their fathers surname.
DAYS OF WEEK:
MONDAY - DWODA
TUESDAY - BENADA
WEDNESDAY - WUKUDA
THURSDAY - YAWDA
FRIDAY - FIDA
SATURDAY - MEMENEDA
SUNDAY - KWASISA
The exact date of birth has never been as important to Africans as it is to Westerners. There was a time when mothers didn't record the date of birth and might have calculated the birth of her child by how many festivals have passed since his birth or by remembering something else that happened in the same year. There is a reluctance on the part of some Africans to reveal the exact birth date because of a superstition that someone who possesses this information can do magic that will harm you. Also birthday celebrations are a western concept. The year of birth might not be important, but that is not true of the day.
Kwame Nkrumah - the first president of Ghana - tells us in his autobiography "Great importance is placed by the Akan on the day of the week on which a child is born for this determines his platonic soul. They believe that a man is possessed of three souls: the blood soul transmitted by the female and considered synonymous with the clan, the ntoro which is transmitted by the male and the okra, or platonic soul. In order that there should be no mistake about the okra, a specific name is given to the child according to the day of the week on which he is born. There are other superstitions surrounding the child's birth. For instance, the first child is supposed to be less bright......Whilst I can claim to fall into the pattern of things by being born on Saturday and bearing the name of Kwame, it is surely disheartening that I was the first and only child of my mother and am therefore, according to tradition less bright than average."
In Ghana don't try to figure out family relationships. It is impolite to give your aunt and uncle less status than your parents, so they are introduced as mother and father. I have a terrible memory for faces and names so it took me awhile to catch on to this, but one day I arrived in a village and my host family was standing in a row to receive me. As we worked our way down the reception line Kwamina introduced me to three women as his mothers. Everyone knew I was confused, but confusing foreigners is fair game. In Africa when calling a female name it is customary to preface it with sister or auntie or mami. Sister is used if you don't know someone very well. When I first went to Ghana I was called auntie. Now I am called mami and I commented that this change made me feel old. I was told that it was meant as a sign of respect. Older people are presumed to be more mature and wiser. I still don't like that greeting, but that's my western preoccupation with age.
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Sankofa Ė Adinkra Symbol (Ashanti Region) for
"Go back and Retrieve" or "Return to you Roots"
Africa For Africans: A Black Americanís Return to Africa
STILL I like to think
I am rich with kinsmen
Each birth calls me home
The dead turn a turn
Everywhere in my blood
Stranger, prodigal, warrior
I greet all as friend and kin
Who have dissolved
Their names in my blood
And I, I look for myself
In their eyes
- Kwadwo Opoku-Agyemang
After 32 years as a Black man in America, I finally journeyed back to the Motherland. I am a high school teacher in Northern California and during the summer of 2003, I went to Ghana, West Africa, for a month to explore education and attempt to connect with a history and an existence that Iíve only read in books. Although I knew my trip would be intense, I had no idea it would be as life changing as it was. The following is not an actual chronicle of my trip (I did a great many things), but instead is a combination of journal entries and emails that explore my own personal experience and emotional journey.
I have to admit that, although I had always longed to go to Africa, I had always been a bit apprehensive about actually going. I mean, after all, we are no longer Africans in the true sense, right? Through slavery and mixing and the American Dream, we have become something else Ė homeless half-breeds who have taken up residence in unfriendly territory. "Africa for Africans" Ė Is that really realistic? I never lived in Africa, nor did my parents or their parents. I have heard so many stories of people who "go home" and are not seen as a member of the community, but as an "American." (Is home really home if youíve never lived there)? On my trip, I reread Langston Hughesí autobiography, The Big Sea, and was reminded of his words:
"And further down the coast it was more like the Africa I had dreamed about Ė wild and lovely, the people dark and beautiful, the palm trees tall, the sun bright, and the rivers deep. The great Africa of my dreams! But there was one thing that hurt me a lot when I talked with people. The Africans looked at me and would not believe I was a Negro.
You see, unfortunately, I am not Black. There are lots of different kinds of blood in our family. But here in the United States, the word "Negro" is used to mean anyone who has any Negro blood at all in his veins. In Africa, the word is more pure. It means all Negro, therefore black."
But other Blacks who had been to Ghana told me differently. They said that everyone they met said, "welcome home" and that every Black American should go. So, I put my faith in the Diaspora and got on the plane.
I changed planes in London and I immediately felt different, somehow. All my nervousness and apprehension disappeared when I saw all of the Africans boarding the plane. I was overwhelmed with an extreme sense of comfort that is somewhat indescribable, as if, for the first time in my life, I could finally take a breath.
Soon I was coming into Accra, Ghana, West Africa. When the plane landed, I turned to the back page of Hughes' The Big Sea and wrote:
"8:30pm. Touchdown. 7/15/03 Ė 17 hours of flying. 79o and raining.
I am here! We just touched down on the Motherland. I am in Africa. I never thought I would ever be here. I thought that it was just a place I would dream about, but never see. A place where white people go to steal things. But, I feel like I am somehow taking it back. The entire plane clapped when we touched down, as if they were so happy to be "home." I am happy too, and I havenít even gotten off the plane."
Once I landed, I immediately wondered why it had taken me so long to come to Africa. There is no need to fear. Everyone I met said, "welcome home" and suggested that regardless of my existence in America, I am originally an African, and therefore still an African. (I thought that this would be a very overwhelming concept, but it was not too overwhelming; it just made sense).
One of the first things I noticed about Ghana was the names. At least half of the people I met seemed to have "American" names like Bob, Vicki, Rodney, and Ben. At first, I thought that people might be translating their name for me (the stupid American) so that it would be easier for me to say their name. However, I soon learned that that wasnít the case. First of all, although there seems to be around 45 official languages in Ghana, the national language is English (this seems to be based on a history of colonialism and the difficulty of agreeing on a national native language). In addition to this, around 90% of the country is Christian. When a child is born in Ghana, they take on a name based on the day of the week on which they were born. For instance, I was born on a bright, sunny Sunday morning. So, my Ghanaian name would be Kwesi, which means a male born on Sunday. You might be thinking that it would create a lot of confusion if there were essentially only 7 names for boys and 7 names for girls. So, after 8 days, there is a naming ceremony in which the baby is usually given a secular or "Christian" name, hence the somewhat "American" names.
On the same track as the names, one of the most intense and enlightening experiences happened in the first week of my trip when I went to visit the Nungua Secondary School. There, I met a teacher who asked me my name. When I told her that my name is Anthony Delaney, she smiled and asked me if I knew what my name means. I didnít really get it. No, I had no idea what my name means, and how would she know what my name means. She went on to tell me that I am I am Ewe (a Ghanaian tribe) and my name comes from that tribe. She said that she actually thought this before she asked me because I "look" Ewe because I have Ewe facial features. She went on to say that my last name, Delaney, means, "The Savior has given it." In Ewe, it would be spelled "Delane." "Dela" is a traditional Ewe word that means "savior" and then there are multiple endings that create a phrase. Her name is Delali, which means "(my) Savior exists." She is, of course, also Ewe.
Now, let me backtrack a minute and say that my choice to go to Ghana was based mainly on hearing about an interesting cultural center in Ghana called the Dagbe Cultural Center in Kopeyia. There was a time when I tried to trace my roots, but never got much past my grandfather on my fatherís side. It never even occurred to me that I could search for my roots in Africa, let alone that I might just unwittingly stumble across my native roots. But then I thought about the fact that that the Trans-Atlantic slave trade came mainly through the Gold Coast, and therefore, most slaves were Ghanaian, making most Blacks in America who are descendants of slaves Ghanaian. The implications of this are amazing. Most slaves took on their slave masterís name and many changed their names entirely after slavery. This suggests that either my family kept and preserved their African name through slavery or regained it after slavery (or that my family were never slaves to begin with, but rather free Blacks. Huh). Now, the name itself tripped me out, but it did not totally convince me that I was a direct descendant of the Ewe tribe. What did convince me were the numerous unsolicited comments that I received throughout the rest of my trip about how I look very Ewe. These were all stated before they had even heard my last name.
Although it was amazing to feel like "family," it also came with a heavy burden. I felt like I was the one person that went away and got something else. Itís not necessarily that people felt like I had "escaped" Ghana and gone to a "better place;" there is great African pride in Ghana. Itís as if I was the one child in the family that was sent to school and was expected to do great things and then come back and bring up the family. Itís not that people feel that living in the land of white people is better, it simply offers you more opportunities.
While in Ghana, I felt like I was charged with two things. The first of which was to properly represent Ghana, Ghanaians, Africa and Africans to Black Americans. I sat with people who told me stories and history so that I could bring it all back with me and tell "the others." I sat with people who wanted to personally take me everywhere and show me the beauty of Ghana so that I could come home and show that beauty to other Blacks. Many Ghanaians whom I spoke with have a just fear that Africa has been misrepresented. Sure, many Blacks in American want to visit Africa, but how many people truly want to leave the familiarity of the US and live for the rest of their lives in a developing country like Ghana? We (yes, Black people, too) have been raised with images and stories that tell us that Africa is savage, dirty, uncivilized and primitive. People only live in villages and walk around without clothes on and without any sense of common decency. We have been told that the only people that go to live in Africa are white missionaries, white peace-corps workers or rich white people on safari (interested in that wild, untamed Africa). Yes, we are interested in visiting the land of our ancestors, but do we really want to live like them? The answer is yes. There is a purity in the human spirit in Ghana that I have never felt in the US. There is a safety on the streets that I have never felt in my own home in the US. I sat with men who showed me that Africa is indeed the Promised Land. It is indeed the paradise spoken of in the bible. I donít mean the white-beaches-and-coconut kind of paradise. Yes, thatís what youíll see if you just look on the surface (and if youíre conscious, that simplicity will disappoint you). Iím talking about something deeper. Something deep in the skin. As if something was left in our blood. Something that calls at a frequency even dogs canít hear. Something that here, in the US, connects to nothing, but, in Ghana, surrounded by black faces in the market, in the government, on TV, on billboards, in adds, as teachers, politicians, athletes, mentors, tutors, mothers, fathers, children, rich and poor, good and badÖ there is finally a response and an interplay that is unimaginable. I truly believe that all Black Americans should experience their motherland. Because, itís important.
So, I have begun to play my part. I am reaching out and calling all Black Americans back to Africa. But, therein lies my second task, which is to save Ghana. One of the more unfortunate parts of my trip was the ultimate poverty and level of desperation that exists in so many Ghanaians. Now, I have been told numerous times not to think that all Ghanaians are poor, because there are some very wealthy Ghanaians. I am sure that this is true. In my month in Ghana, I donít believe I ever met any "very wealthy Ghanaians" nor did I see any sign of them except in the $300-a-night hotels and on the "tourist" boat that cruises Lake Volta. I am not an economist; I am a humanist. Whatís the point in talking about wealth in Ghana if it doesnít filter to the majority of the people who live there. I feel like there is a some secret, hidden VIP lounge (which may be the hotels) somewhere in Ghana where all the rich people live and shop and throw parities, because I didnít see any sign of them in the lives of the average person. So, if you are a Black man from America who can afford to travel to Africa for a month (and, thank you to my school for paying part of my trip), then you are seen as something special. Let me explain it this way, in Ghana, one beer costs around 6,000 cedi. At the time that I was there, $1 (US) equaled around 8885 cedi (but the rate changes everyday). So one beer cost less than a dollar. And, you are a Ghanaian who is lucky enough to have a job and you only make $50 a paycheck and then you have these tourist who are changing $100 and $200 EVERY DAY. Until 2002, the largest bill was 5,000 cedi (side note - I went to the national museum and they had the history of Ghanaian money. The most recent money in the museum was from 1976 were 1 and 2 cedi bills. Now, 27 years later, the smallest bill available is 1,000 cedi. Imagine watching the dollar plummet at that rate in the span of your current lifetime). Anyway, They just introduced 10,000 and 20,000 cedi bills, but the majority of large bills are still in 5,000 cedi bills. So, if you cash $200 in travelerís checks, you receive 17,77000 cedi, which gives you about 355 bills. You literally receive so many bills that you canít even fit them in your pocket or your money pouch. This is an obscene amount of money for the average Ghanaian.
So, letís remember that I am not a white tourist that you want to pressure for dash or a tip. I am that distant relative who was "sent off" to live in America and is now charged with "giving back to the family." I am expected to buy land and set up a business and invest in the future and help out a village and build a school and marry a Ghanaian and change the world and save Ghana. And, the most difficult part of this is that I wanted to do it all. The difficult thing is that I "feel" like family and I do have more and I do want to help and, realistically, I can and should. Yes, I would like to buy some land and pay a farmer. Yes I would like to help out a village and a youth center, especially when $50 is a huge sum of money to most. I really struggled (and still struggle) with this whole thing. At one point, I bought some beads and wore them only once. Every one was so enamored by the beads because they canít afford them - ancient beads that can no longer be made - but I could buy them on a whim because they cost less than $20 US. I unwittingly purchased an IRREPLACEABLE piece of African history for the price of a hamburger, fries and a Budweiser just because I thought that they were "pretty." You can tell the tourist because they wear beads. It seemed like most Ghanaians had beads, but only wore them on special occasions because they are "expensive" (like pearls or fine jewelry).
This whole struggle honestly brings tears to my eyes. People who have taken care of me everyday are now looking at me as some kind of a savior, someone who is family and can help - not them, but everybody. Conversations with proud Africans who want to tell me everything because I am family and I am expected to tell the "truth" about Africa and encourage more Blacks to return to Africa. I am expected to start up a village farm because I am family and I have more so, I should help. I am sought after by women because I am family and their mothers would like me because I am really Ewe.
I have been around the US and traveled to Mexico, Jamaica and also to Europe many times, but I am truly in a unique place now; a developing country with billions of dollars in resources (gold, diamonds, timber, etc.) that never make it to the common man/woman and a country that is also caught between tradition/pride, western life and money. Babylon has destroyed everything. Paradise is lost. In then end I am left struggling, looking into a beautiful womanís eyes and saying, "No, Iím sorry, but I do not want to marry you."
Sent: Saturday, July 26, 2003 8:55 AM
Subject: The Slave Castle
Yesterday, I went to one of the Slave Castles. Slave Castle in itself sounds like an oxymoron to me. How can something as grand as a castle exists for something as horrific as slavery? Well, it does. The huge castles are scattered throughout this area and were used to house slaves (up to 1200 or 1500 in some castles) in deep dungeons. There are so many things about them. It is a very sad memorial. You can literally feel the spirits of the past as you walk though the dungeons. There are still scratch marks embedded in the walls and ground still feels like blood and urine and suffocation and fear.
One of the most disturbing parts for me was stepping into the "cell." In the literature of the Cape Coast Castle it says:
"This cell is often referred to as the condemned cell at the castle. It is believed from a historical point of view that some of the captives revolted against the European Merchants because of the ordeal in which they were subjected. Among those found uncontrollable were either branded or died of suffocation and starvation to serve as a deterrent to others.
As many as fifty people were confined to that small cell. They died so painfully that some scratched the floor and the walls. After death, they were given mass burial or as being speculated, thrown to sea."
I immediately felt nauseous and claustrophobic and had to leave.
There is a door in the castle called the "Door of No Return." This was the final exit for the African Slaves and they boarded boats across the Middle Passage. In 1998, Ghana celebrated the Emancipation Day by exhuming two skeletons from New York and Jamaica bringing them back to Africa. They brought the skeletons back through this door and had a ceremony and marked it as the "Door of Return." The literature says, "with that ceremony, we the living are welcoming our brothers and sisters in Diaspora back home." When I visited, we went out the "Door of No Return" to the landing just outside the door. There were a number of Ghanaian fisherman and children bringing in boats and mending nets. Once on the outside, we saw the new "Door of Return" sign and then re-entered the castle through the door. After we were back inside and walking away, and the big wooden door was closed, we heard a small voice calling out from the other side of the door. The small voice cried "Hello! Can anybody hear me?" It was probably just a child calling after the Americans, but there was an odd tinge of desperation in the voice. The castle was eerie enough, but that experience was too spooky to forget. A week or so later, I wrote this poem (this is unfinished - raw and unrevised Ėit will get better):
SankofaI lived through an African rainstorm
Traces of history rolling through the mud lined streets
If you stand on the shores of Cape Coast
You will hear slave
Voices in the wind crying "Hello,
Can anybody hear me?" (Yes, I can)
In the states
There are ghosts of slaves
And 3-piece suits
And bargaining for their lives Ė
The auction block is far away, now
But our shackles keep us tethered
(but, I am a runaway).
Africa for Africans, Garvey said
-Return to your roots, and the rivers
Langston spoke of at 18
Return to this mud
And the rain and the Black earth
Under my fingernails
(And under his skin).
"We are all Africans," Malik said
Over a Star at the Blue Blue in Nungua
Retrace the rivers and the mud and the rain
And return to your roots.
Open your mouth
And drink the rain
It is manna
And this is Paradise.
One thing that dawned on me while at that Slave Castles was that in coming to Africa, I thought that slavery would be seeping out of every crack in the sidewalk, but itís not. I feel like Africans see slavery as a distant and sad piece of the countryís history. Itís as if African-Americans are more connected or fixated on slavery than Africans. I thought it would be the opposite, but it really makes sense when you think about it. African-Americans exist as a literal product of slavery while contemporary Africans exist in spite of slavery. Africans still have their culture, fluently speak their native language and know their home and their ancestors, etc., while African-Americanís are a peoples without a home. We are estranged, but contemporary Africans never left their homeland. So, because of all of this, in Africa, slavery seems like a piece of history that they are trying to understand, but for African-Americans, it is a reality that we are still struggling to overcome.
The biggest thing that I learned about the slave castles is that I never want to go back to them.
I spent about 3 and 1/2 days in the village of Kopeyia at the Dagbe Cultural Center attempting to learn traditional drumming. It was very hard for me. I had two 2-hour lessons per day and I am horrible. The hardest part for me is the timing because the entire sound is based on the offbeat. American music is rooted in the downbeat and the 4/4 timing. Here, everything is polyrhythmic and played OFF of the downbeat and in 5/6 or 6/8 time. I have equated it to snowboarding - when I first started snowboarding, I spent 3 days on the slopes falling down and getting beaten up, sore and frustrated. I later came back to it and enjoyed myself. Here, I spent 3 days getting beat up, sore (hands) and frustrated. Ideally, I will return to the drum and feel like I have learned something - it has not yet happened. (The moral of this story is that 3 days is not enough time to learn anything). Kopeyia was very interesting, though. It is a small village of about 250 people and it has no electricity or running water (sponge baths, lanterns, mud huts and an outhouse). It is in the Volta region, which is Ewe (where my name is from). Throughout my stay, a number of older people looked at me in confusion. They could see by my dress and hear by my speech that I was American, but they commented that I had strong Ewe features and I looked quite Ewe. When I told them my name, they embraced me and said that I was Ewe, welcome home and proceeded to call me by my last name and not by Anthony. In fact, most people called me either Kwesi (male born on Sunday) or Delaney during my time there.
After Kopeyia, I went to a city called Kumasi in the Ashanti region. I didnít like Kumasi. It seemed to be very busy and dirty and thick with pollution (although the night life seemed happening). It seemed like an industrial city, like the African version of Detroit (however, I have never actually been to Detroit). I also got very sick there (what goes down must come up) and stayed sick for almost a week. The highlights were woodcarvings, traditional, old Kente cloth, and Adinkra cloth. The lowlights were getting sick and the pollution (it may have just been particularly bad those few days, but the pollution was literally as thick as fog and people were driving with their lights on). While I was choking from the pollution, I wrote this poem (again, unfinished)
The Door of Return
If you cut me open
And reached inside
You could squeeze liquid diesel
From my lungs.
Take a butter knife
And scrape the red dust
From my arms and ears
And the space between my toes.
Find some warm water (good luck)
And see if you can wash the $
From the small of my back.
I will help you
And weíll scrub together
I will bend backwards
And hope that you can support me.
Odd, isnít it?
You supporting me.
And you thought it would be the other way around.
Sent: Saturday, August 11, 2003 5:48 PM
In two days I will leave Ghana. Itís all a bit weird now. Iím sick of running around and haggling for prices on everything. I am sick of buying and spending. Iím road weary and tired of traveling. Iím not necessarily ready to leave Ghana, but I am ready to leave this situation: the lodging, not working, unexplained expectations, spending, spending, spending, etc.
Since I have been here, Iíve made a number of decisions (that I may or may not accept once I get back to my normal life). I want to go back to school and get a PhD in African American Studies (UC Berkeley, Howard or U.W.). I want to find a different apartment near the lake in Oakland. I want to begin writing a personal narrative/autobiographical novel. I want to reignite the Caliban Foundation and begin a new program called Sankofa that financially supports a cultural youth program in Ghana and also focuses on helping African American youth connect with their African heritage - hopefully raising enough money to organize a small trip to Ghana for Black youth. I want to buy a plot of land in Ghana and start building a house. I want to be the next Bob Marley (this is big - although Iíve always liked writing and making music, I always felt that being a writer or a musician was inherently selfish and you were not doing anything to better the world around you (like teaching). For a number of deep reasons, this trip has shown me the value of working with oneís talents, whatever they may be. And that giving yourself to your talent is essential and not selfish, especially if you use your talent to better the world. It is amazing how life-changing Bob Marleyís lyrics are to people. At the University of Oregon (where I went to school), Bob Marley is just a Frat clichť - Everybody has Legend and you canít go a day without seeing a bunch of tie-dyed, white hippies swaying to "No Woman, No Cry," "Three Little Birds" or "Redemption Song." It took me a trip to Jamaica and a Trip to Africa to finally accept (not to see, but to "accept") that Bob Marley exists on a different plain of understanding. Maybe it was my interest and gravitation to Fela Kuti and Highlife that finally brought me back to Bob and the power of radicalism through art.)
Well, anyway... Iím rambling. I think that I am fortunate to come back from this trip a different man. I have felt that I have just been spinning my wheels in California without any strong direction. Iíve just been going with the flow of things. I think that this trip came at a changing point in my life. A point where I was feeling anxious for something different, something important. Iím not trying to say that Iíve found that here in Ghana. Iím not trying to say that I have a "whole new lease on life." I guess Iím just trying to say that I have been standing at the junction for a few years now, and this trip has allowed me to accept that there are other roads (not to "see" that there are other roads, because theyíve always been there, but to accept that they are real and tangible and that there is value in letting go of the apron strings and venturing down those roads without a trail of breadcrumbs for that time when life gets tough). So, Iím not somebody else, now. Iím not coming back to change my name, sell all my possessions and live on a diet of plantains and pineapple. I am still me. I guess I am just more of me.
Well, this will probably be my last transmission from the motherland. I look forward to seeing all of you at some point in the near future.
And then I left. Just like that, it was over. Life changed the minute I boarded the plane. Somewhere between Accra and London my clothes dried out completely (Ghana is very humid) and Ghana had left me just that quickly. I now have memories, four 90-minute videotapes, Kente and carvings. I am now struggling to fit back into a system where most people donít look like me. I am now struggling to fit back into a system where disposable income and convenience are abundant. I have so easily fallen back into a system where hot water and bathrooms are assumed. Life is life, I guess. Whenever I would ask my friend Dada (a Ghanaian drummaker) how it was going, he would answer: "It goes the way itís supposed to go." For good or for bad, things go the way they are supposed to go. Somewhere else, I heard someone say: "If you havenít gotten where your going, youíre not there yet." I guess our only job is to accept the way things go and try to understand, believe and focus on where it is weíre trying to go. Maybe Iím just trying to actually "see" everything in my life so that I can understand whatís real and whatís not.
Anyway, thanks for reading.